Where are you summer?

i dont think i need to really complain about all this rain, cause i like it, it makes everything green. but i am ready for some summer SUN.

what i look forward to most:

. wearing my swimsuit 24/7

. no make up

. ice cream&popsicles

. riding bikes

. being tan/sun burned

. rubbing sand out of my eyebrows

. making many trips home to get my beach&surf on

. trashy beach reads

. air dry my hair

. 4th of july

there are many, many more things. but these are the things i want right now!

come on sun! i know you want to come out :)

whoops.

3 months of no writing.

lets say 5, since for 2 i wrote sappy ish.

well guess what?

its 64 degrees in utah today, which means...SPRING.

lo siento for my seasonal depression.

i was born and raised in sunny southern california.

its not my fault, so bite me.

life is good and i am happy when the sun is shining.

:)

2010

Im not going to lie, 2010 started out GREAT and ended HORRIBLY.

But thats just the way it goes sometimes. Its really hard to not have the attitude,

"all good things must come to an end."

But, i will try really hard to keep believing that one day a good thing wont come to an end, it will last forever.

so, 2011, i welcome:

1. lots of work

2. lots of school

3. lots of working out

3. boys that come and always seem to go

4. FINISHING school

5. brother coming home

6. brother and sister living in utah

7. living my life for me, not anyone else

so, goodbye 2010, you were a betch. but i learned a lot.

Merry Christmas!

venting sesh.

I cant help but notice, in my life and those around me, that fear over rules our lives.

we end relationships, because we are scared they might not work out.

we stay in school and change our majors, because we are scared we wont be good at the ones we are in.

we hide certain parts of who we are, because we are scared what others will think.

we travel, move or go on missions(sometimes) to run away from our lives, cause we are just scared of life.

Well, i dont know about you, but im sick of being scared. im sick of fear ruling my life.

i want to keep my big heart and not have to guard it, i want to be vulnerable.

i want to stop assuming everyone will hurt me.

i want to stop playing games and pretend like i dont care.

i want to stop running away

and i want to start my life.

the only way to do this is to stop being scared.

were going to miss out on too many amazing things and people in life if we are scared.

so, stop being scared with me.

be brave. be vulnerable.

do not be scared.

"if we wait around to be sure, we will be waiting forever."

if you want it, stop thinking, go get it.

the rest will take care of itself.

***sorry for being deep. ill write a sarcastic and rude post soon to make up for it. promise.

thanksgiving.

They say the more we see things, the less we actually SEE them.

unfortunately, this is so true and I am not a fan.

I've been that person and people have done it to me.

So, lets notice when we do this and quickly change it, mmkay pumpkin?

things i am thankful for:

1. my family(duh)

2. being healthy

3. people who invited me to be a part of their thanksgiving while i am far from my family.

4. taylor swift music

5. good food

6. rain

7. cold blankets

8. people who smile alot

9. living in america

10. all the armed forces and their families

11. trials

12. forgiveness

13. my life

feelings.

you're a special kind of stupid, aren't you?